Remember when Pooh visited Rabbit’s house and ate too much
honey causing him to get stuck in the hole as he tried to leave? That image of Pooh is an iconic one…it’s the
one where his friends come to his rescue and keep him company until he gets
thin again. But there’s another side to
this story…it’s not just about Pooh trying to get out. It’s also about a frazzled Rabbit left with Pooh’s legs
dangling in his living room. While he
was unhappy about what had occurred, he managed to make the most out of what was happening.
As you know, on Monday of last week, I had a bone biopsy to
determine if the lesion discovered on my pelvic bone during the PET scan was
cancerous. Friday my oncologist
confirmed that it was cancer. My cancer has spread to my bone. It was hard to hear but honestly was
something I had been preparing myself for and was better than hearing the
biopsy was inconclusive, giving me a false sense of hope.
This upcoming week I visit the radiation oncologist and will
prepare to begin radiation to my pelvic bone.
My medical team believes this will sterilize the cancerous area. This procedure combined with my new hormone blocking
medication will hopefully contain additional recurrence of cancer for a long
time to come.
So today here we are…working on acceptance and putting
everything in perspective. Just a few
weeks ago I believed I was cancer free, working toward that 5 year mark of true
survivorship. Instead I am now faced
with the harsh reality that I have stage IV cancer. I NEVER thought this would happen and now
like Rabbit must maintain a positive attitude and find this positive. Don’t get me wrong, it’s hard.
I cry.
I worry.
I question.
I fight.
I hope.
I dream.
I laugh.
I pray.
However, I don’t plan to be stuck in this rabbit hole for long, I
plan to LIVE and plan to continue enjoying the amazing life I have. It won’t always be easy but will always be my
goal.
It was Pooh's friends in the Hundred Acre Wood who offered him companionship and encouragement as he waited to get thin enough to fit through the hole. I, too, will need that same friendship and encouragement to get out of the tough spot I'm in. I particularly ask that you continue to pray
for me and help me accept the reality that I may never be cancer free.
Thanks for being there for me. I am forever grateful. --Christina