It's October...smell the flowers

It's hard to believe that it's been 2 1/2 months since being diagnosed with cancer.  And while there is still so much that lays ahead, I have to look back and celebrate where we are today, particularly a lumpectomy site free from visible cancer.  Already in the books, a clinical trial, 2 surgeries, many consultations and lots of tests.  There has been quite a bit to think about, too.  Cancer is an emotional journey.  I cry. I laugh, I cry some more,  But through it all, I am reminded that it's OK and it will continue to be OK.

"Weeds are flowers too once you get to know them."  --Eeyore

While I may never get used to or like saying I HAVE CANCER, I have begun to appreciate the fact that it can change you in positive ways.  For me, the immediate change is just slowing down or smelling the flowers and enjoying the simple things I wrote about previously.  It's also been an opportunity to appreciate those around me on a much deeper level.

Today we enter October, Breast Cancer Awareness Month, and I anticipate the new challenges ahead...the start of chemo being the biggest.  Recently, the anxiety of starting treatment is what I am having trouble dealing with because I have no idea what to expect. While I am starting to view cancer as a small flower, chemo is still a big ugly weed in my mind!  I currently feel really good physically and simply struggle with the thought of making myself sick (potentially really sick) just to get healthy.  Maybe when we ring in 2015, I will begin to appreciate chemo. (Sounds like I just made a New Year's Resolution!)

Now for one more update..."Team Evil Lumps and Woozles" is gearing up for the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure on October 25.  We had an amazing response for tshirt orders and have seen several donations made to our team page.  My family and I are grateful for your support, especially as I am prepare to start treatment. We hope to see many of you on Race Day...as we celebrate together and raise Breast Cancer Awareness.

Until then, I challenge you to slow down long enough to see the flowers blooming around you!